"Pregnant with God's Vision"

I know, that sounds pretty interesting, right?  No, I'm not talking about being physically pregnant-not married and SO not ready for that!-but about a video that my friend Melissa showed me last night that actually has to relate with what I'm going through.

I don't know if any of you have ever heard of Joyce Meyer-I hadn't really listened to her or read any of her books (she has like a BILLION of them!) but what Melissa showed me last night really spoke to me.  Assuming I can figure out how to do it, I'll post the link right here:

Ok, so you can check it out for yourself if you'd like-the whole video is really good, but it's starting at about 15:13 that really spoke to me.  Just before this, she uses the illustration of John 21, when Peter decides to go out and go fishing, and 6 of the other disciples go with him.  They fish all night and don't catch a thing, and in the morning Jesus comes (but they don't know it's Him) and tells them to cast the net off the right side of the boat.  They catch so many fish they can't reel them in!

Joyce says that sometimes being out of God's timing means being out of His will, that you can know (or think you know) what God wants you to do, but act in your emotions without waiting for His timing and still have it not work out.  And this is frustrating (oh, yes, is it frustrating!) because deep down, we know it's His will, and we don't understand, and we can't figure it out.

Here I Go (Again)

Once upon a time (last spring) I tried to have a blog.  That lasted for about a month, or maybe 5 posts...I couldn't even tell you.  I may end up using some of the posts from that blog, or may direct anyone who ever decides to read this to a post.

Why have I decided to blog again?  And right at the busiest time of the semester, with portfolios due for my writing classes, and essays to write, and finals to study for?  One, because I'm insane (in the best sense of the word) and two, because I think a lot.  Probably more than is healthy for me.  And I dream-literally and figuratively.  I have so much that I want to do with my life, and I know that God's plans for me are even crazier and better than anything I might have floating around in my head.  I guess I'm just hoping to chronicle the process as best as I can, share what I learn along the way, and hopefully figure out what it is exactly that I'm supposed to do with my life, seeing as how I only have a year left of college after this semester (yes, I'm trying to graduate in 2.5 years instead of 4-see reason number one for blogging again!).

So what have I learned since my last blogging attempt?  A few Spanish verb tenses, a couple of crazy camp songs...and that sometimes God has us wait!   Crazy, right?